She seemed to sense that I could not move. She told me that I could change right here or in the bathroom. I guess that was my only choice…not whether I did it but where I did it. Mary had already decided that I was going to do it.
It seemed like the more in control and in charge she was, the weaker I became.
I knew that the men she dated would not have been asked to do this. And if by chance they were, they would of course refuse! She looked at them differently than me.
Mary made me stand up as she unbuckled my jeans and tugged them down. I stood there like a rag doll not helping but unable to fight. She almost forced me to undress.
She went to her dresser and opened her top drawer. Out came a lot of things… slips, bras, a dress and some other lingerie. It all happened so fast!
I thought…if I “let” her do this she would never ever see me as an equal again. Not that she ever did, but she would always know that she did this to me and that I let her.
Then Mary did this maneuver where she pulled a half slip up my legs while I still had on my “male underwear.” I remember her saying something about not needing to be shy. She held the slip open and then did the exact same thing with the panties. I felt like I had to step in to them. Well, either step in or object. Of course you know that I could not do that latter. I was not strong enough. I had to do what she wanted.
Basically, Mary used me that day as her dress up doll…probably for a half an hour anyway. She laughed a lot and made me try on different things. I was totally humiliated!
She would never see me as a man. I felt like her property. Like her toy. I was so embarrassed. I knew that it was never going to be the same and there was certainly no going back.
I guess I felt like she owned me. Before Mary, I would not have believed one person could own another. But this really was how it felt to me. And somehow, my small endowment seemed connected to all of it…it just did.
But as humiliating as this experience was, something felt right. I really can’t explain it but something felt very, very deeply right. Mary helped me to see who I was that day…my true self.
My weakness…her strength…it was SO very real!
Joy & Love,
Goddess Mandy 🙂 XO
This is hot and happening to me with the mistresses in my feminization circuit training program. My masseuse did this to me also as she had me in makeup/lipstick/dresses and heels as she took pictures of me with her phone. Uses perfumes and lotions on my massages and cheeks to keep me smelling like a cream puff girl all the time. Also she’s taken control over my spending so I can do massages 3xweek and monthly waxings and said no more buying women’s clothes as I have enough. I don’t question or resist her as she can hit send anytime. With this happening I’m her cream puff girl forever as she has her nails dug into me with no intention of ever letting me go.
It’s all so wonderfully exciting, Paulina, I totally understand!! Oh and btw…when did you change your name to Paulina?!? It’s a very pretty name for a very pretty cream puff girl. 🙂
Ms Cindy gave me the name Paulina. Now that I’ve been put in friend zone by girls I know this means I’m not boyfriend material anymore and I’m doing the feminization circuit training program with Ms Erika as my head mistress along with Ms Olivia/Ms Delia/Ms Alyssa & Ms Erin. Ms Erika said I can focus on the mistresses making me a girl by dressing/lipstick kissing my cheeks/feminization therapy and keeping me a girl forever at home and not deal with the drama and emotions of being in relationship anymore. She said it’s not fantasy anymore it’s reality. With my masseuse she’s using perfumes mixed with lotions on my massages and cheeks as she has me smelling like a girl all the time. Do you think I should ask her to take control over my feminization? I want to tell her to. She’s already taken control over my spending so I can do massages 3xweek and monthly waxings.
I love your new name…Paulina…very feminine and pretty! The training sounds absolutely puuuuurfect for you, sweetie. I think that perhaps you should ask Ms.Erika or one of the other Mistresses that are helping you to be even more of a pretty cream puff girl. I bet any one of them could give you wonderful advice about your masseuse! 🙂
Now that I’ve been put in friend zone by girls I know and I’m not boyfriend material anymore. I agree with the feminization circuit training program. I don’t mind being in friend zone. 2-3 years ago I would’ve been mad but now I can dress up at home as a girl whenever I want with the mistresses help and not have to deal with the drama and emotions of being in relationship. At my age most women are married with kids and I’m not and the girls that put me in friend zone are 20-25 years younger than me. So the feminization circuit training program is the right decision for me. I think this will be long term life time program. Ms Erika said this is going to be intense program as all the mistresses have feminization planned for me. Ms Olivia is going to put me on strict diet to have me get hour glass figure. Ms Delia is going to put makeup/lipstick/get rid of 5 o clock shadow as well wig on me to see how I look. Ms Cindy is going to give me advice on how to be in female lead relationship and more girlish. Ms Erin is going to give me feminization therapy and program to be more girlish and accept that I need to wear bras/panties everyday. I’m going to ask her and Ms Cindy about having my masseuse take charge of me with my feminization with advice on asking her that I want this. Undecided about what Ms Alyssa & Ms Erika are going to do to me. Ms Erika said this isn’t about fantasy anymore it’s reality. Especially with my new name.