An interesting and exciting update from My sissy cumslut, melody! My thoughts and feelings are interspersed in blue… 🙂
At the 90 day mark, Goddess Mandy asked me to write another update post for Her blog, for everyone’s enjoyment. And in My mind to also keep up with YOU, melody and your assignment. And how it might be changing you in various lovely ways. 🙂 It was nice to see the lovely comments on the previous post from other LDW Mistresses and clients.
Shortly after the last post, Goddess Mandy wonderfully decided to follow through with Her idea of extending my training to 120 days. I was and am VERY excited about this extension for you, melody! 🙂 After completing three months out of (now) four, Goddess Mandy and i had a chance to connect on a call to talk more about the training, goals, and anything new i’ve noticed during the last 30 days.
Over the years, i have had more than a passing interest in men, from touch and kissing to sucking and fucking. Goddess Mandy said She wanted to further focus my attention on Her, because of course everything i do is for Her, and to really focus me on men. This will allow my brain to explore more of my thoughts, feelings, and desires about men, about being with a man, about being a sissy with a man, and about being used by men.
During the last 30 days, everything i wrote in the last update is still true. However, one new change has occurred which feels significant given Goddess Mandy’s purpose for my training. At night when lying in bed, i occasionally like to run through different fantasies. Recently, i have noticed it is much harder to see women in my mind and end up fantasizing more about men. my attention to men’s appearances in person also continues to heighten. I am VERY excited about these changes for you, but more than that I am simply grateful that you have the opportunity to more fully explore your wants, needs, and desires! And yes, in this case, specifically when it comes to men! 🙂
Approximately 30 days from now i will write another update for Goddess Mandy to post. Again, thank you to everyone who has posted comments. I am also very much appreciating all of the comments and hope that they will continue to flow in as melody continues her assignment, and really her journey and exploration of men! 🙂
And thank You, Goddess, for all You do for me!
sissy cum slut melody
Joy & Love,
Goddess Mandy 🙂 XO
120 days of training has me questioning is this normal or short timed, or needs to be extended.
why not continual training for ever?
i wish Mandy would train me more, guess she has me were she wants me.
Thank You, Goddess, for posting my update for everyone. This has definitely been a great journey and excellent training for me. Serving You is an absolute pleasure!
Wow, fuckhead…you are asking such wonderfully thoughtful questions, here! My thinking is that we are all interesting and unique beings. And with that, our wants, needs, and desires are often quite different and diverse from one another. An assignment or type or length of training might might sense for you but not someone else or vice versa.
And I am very happy with where you are right now, fuckhead. However, there is likely room for some additional training and servitude. Let’s both continue to think about this, together! 🙂
My pleasure always, melody! And thank you! I am SO happy to hear just how much you’ve been enjoying the journey. I really think that is always what it is about! The big picture in life (IMO)…enjoying the journey and ALL of what that might hold for us! 🙂
Much gratitude Goddess for sharing melody’s stories with us. it is always refreshing to share the many diversities of our kinks in a safe place. You, Goddess, have the experience, care, and talents to develop a unique plan for each of us to discover our true wants and needs, push our boundaries, and stretch our limits in such delicious and yummy ways You seem to enjoy as much as we, Your fans and pets, do. Thanks again to both scs melody and Goddess Mandy for yet more fantasy fodder for my mind monkeys.
Thank you so much kneel for ALL of your wonderful words and gratitude for both Me and melody! You know that I love to share! 🙂
And as you said, the opportunity to share the “diversity of our kinks” in a safe place. I feel this is so important, so vital for each of us to have this space place (space) to do so! To be able to come as you are and share yourself, your truth, without judgement! 🙂
I seem to be a bit further on the journey to accepting one’s gayness than Melody is right now. I too am a sissy CD who loves serving and servicing men, especially ones with big juicy cocks. You will find that over time (after many years of being a sissy submissive slut) that you no longer dream about women but only want to service men and their big cocks. Not only do I suck cock while I’m crossdressed (mostly married men who don’t get BJs from their wives) but I also give up my man-pussy to any man who wants to fuck me.
After a while you begin to realize that you don’t ever want to have intercourse with a woman but you only want “to be the woman”. When you realize that you only want to suck cock & get fucked, you finally accept the truth that, yes, you are gay.
That is what has happened to me over the past 3 years or so. I now only want cock and I love giving myself, fully & completely, to men — AND ONLY MEN. I now know and accept that, yes, I AM GAY.
This is what will eventually happen to Melody. When it does, I will welcome you into the sissy faggot gay club. It’s a wonderful place to be.
Thank you cdCindy!! I SO appreciate all that you’ve shared here with us! I am sure that melody will appreciate reading about all that you’ve discovered and figured out for yourself in the last 3 years! I am truly happy to hear that you’ve found your true authentic gay sissy self!!! 🙂