Do you remember My sissy cum slut melody?!? Well…she was the one who wrote all of the wonderfully creative and sexy additions to My story about Kelly & Lori! 🙂
And since she just absolutely LOVES to write things for Me…I asked her to share with Me and you all what has been going on in her world these days! I think the title above might just give you a tiny little clue. And I will say this, the “results” so far have been quite interesting!! 🙂
Here is what she had to say… 🙂
About two months ago, Goddess Mandy and i discussed how to change my masturbation schedule. Sometimes i tend to become a chronic masturbator and need Goddess’ help in controlling my clitty. This time, Goddess saw an opportunity to further my training.
For this schedule, Goddess Mandy generously allows me to play with my clitty and cum whenever i want…but i can only do it while watching gay porn or fantasizing about it. As a sissy, watching gay porn is nothing new. However, i lumped in a lot of sissy, fem-boy, and trans scenes where i focused on being a sissy and submitting to women. Instead, Goddess Mandy wanted my focus on the men. There is no better way to do that than only seeing men, especially when the men are fucking each other with their big cocks.
Goddess and i thought about how long this schedule should last. When She proposed 45 days, i suggested more time was needed to see real effects. She agreed and wonderfully doubled it to 90 days. As of this writing, i am 60 days in. Goddess asked me to write about how things are going and any noticeable changes…below are the things I’ve noticed so far.
Twinks and jocks have become my go-to scenes, especially when the guys are fit and toned. Big cocks are a must! Part of the schedule also includes tracking my orgasms and any videos that catch my eye. Now i have a long list of favorites at my fingertips.
Even though i’m a sissy cum slut, i’ve become more focused on fucking, especially doggy style. The best scenes for me are where the top physically imposes himself while pounding the bottom (in my mind, me) as hard and deep as he can.
Men and cocks are on my mind throughout the day, even if i am not watching gay porn. Images of men, cocks, fucking, and balls slapping creep into my thoughts throughout the day and in the middle of the night. Focus on work can be challenging.
Another realization is that i am attracted to men’s bodies and their cocks but have only recently focused on their faces. By focusing more on male facial features and attractiveness, i find myself seeing men and thinking about if i want them or not. Romantic relationships with men are still not of interest to me, but men can use me and fuck me as hard as they want.
While some may think this schedule is easy, i had many times when i wanted to quit. Goddess Mandy was always there to support and encourage me, reminding me how beneficial this training is for me. As She and i talked, i realized what is really missing is the visual stimulation of strong, intelligent, and beautiful Women to make it easier for me to fantasize about idolizing and worshiping Them. The sissy in me wants to be Them, and the submissive in me wants to kneel and submit.
This exercise has reinforced my submission to Goddess Mandy. Her pleasure and of those She lets use me is primary. Any pleasure i derive is completely secondary. It’s always a jolt of satisfaction to hear my Goddess respond to me with praise or especially, “Oh God, that’s really hot.”
Lastly, my humiliation kink has increased. my clitty should only cum with men while keeping me pussy free. The only pussy would be if my Goddess allows me to worship Her pussy with my mouth. Writing this post and my other stories Goddess Mandy has published publicly labels me a pussy free cock lover, especially to all the Lovely Ladies of LDW.
So what does the future have in store for me? Will i ever actually go gay for my Goddess in real life? Will i ever truly want to? Who knows? All i know for sure is that i have at least 30 more days of stroking to cock, men, and hot gay sex.
Thank You, Goddess, for all You do for me!
sissy cum slut melody
Joy & Love,
Goddess Mandy 🙂 XO
PS. Keep an eye out for melody’s 90-day update! Unless of course I decide to up it to 120 days?!? Hmmm…that is definitely not the worst idea that I’ve ever had! 😉
Thank You, Goddess, for posting my update. 90 or 120 days or whatever You decide, i am so happy to serve and be trained by You.
It’s My pleasure, sissy cum slut…thank you for sharing your experience with Me and everyone who might be reading, too! 🙂 I know that you’ll go 90, 120, or however long I might desire! And I love knowing and hearing that you are happy to serve Me and be trained by Me! And it goes both ways, melody…you are just a pure delight!!! 🙂
Please accept my gratitude for Goddess Mandy, and Her loyal Subbie CSM, for sharing such a thought provoking post. Even though my kink is not exactly the same as CSM’s, her’s provided clarity to mine. Thank You Goddess, and the Enchantrix Empire, for providing a safe space to share our kinks and fantasies, i appreciate the reinforcement of everyone is entitled to their own fantasies, without judgement, but acceptance.
“Her pleasure and of those She lets use me is primary.
i will totally agree with CSM in Her statement: Any pleasure i derive is completely secondary. It’s always a jolt of satisfaction to hear my Goddess respond to me with praise or especially, “Oh God, that’s really hot.”
Thank You Goddess Mandy for the privilege of a place in Your stable of submissives worthy of Your Dominance.
Hi kneel!
Before I say anything else I will begin by saying, you’re most welcome! 🙂 And I just absolutely love that melody’s kink provided greater clarity on your own. And that I and all of The Enchantrix Empire provide such a wonderfully safe space for you to share and explore your fantasies and kinks! I know that for many this is absolutely priceless! 🙂
And kneel…you not only have a very special place in My stable, but you also have that very special place in My garden, too!!! 🙂
What a story and assignment.
Mandy had me only watch porn of men eating cum off women, as i eat my cum for her.
She is working with me to increase my cum production by edging M-F.
Enjoy your assignment
Yes fuckhead…I love the story, too!! And I also SO love seeing the changes in her as more time passes! 🙂 Thank you so much for sharing what I have done with you and what we’re working on right now, as well! I love seeing so much exploration, growth, and change…in melody…in you…and in so many others, too! 🙂 This is a very thoughtful and beautiful share from you, fuckhead!!! 🙂
What a hot testimonial!
Don’t mind Me, I know I’m quite late to the comments, but I’ve been entranced by cock Myself all Summer long–namely My boyfriends’-and I’m well behind on reading what My Mistress friends and their subbies have been up to!
I relate to cum slut melody in terms of what turns he/r on in gay porn. Probably My favorite is a scene where the D/s dynamic is in place between the top and the bottom, whether formally or just by virtue of how dominant and ass/mouth hungry the top is, contrasted by how willing/hungry the bottom is to submit!
That’s just one aspect that resonated with Me. Overall, it’s clear to Me that Mistress Mandy knows how to captivate Her devotees, and steer them to deeper experiences of their kinks and fantasies! Mistress Mandy knows what’s best for you!
Ohhhhh Miss Rachel…you are not at all late with your comments and are ALWAYS welcome around these parts!! 🙂
Thanks for stopping by and sharing your very sexy thoughts with us! I just love that you shared one of your favorite type of scenes…and YES, YES, YES…that D/s dynamic is often soooooo incredibly hot to witness…I could not agree more! 🙂
And thank you so much for your words of praise, Miss Rachel! I always try to both captivate and help create a meaningful and deep experience for everyone. It means a LOT to me when I’m indeed able to do this!!! 🙂
My pleasure, My dear!